1.28.2006

After Seeing Sylvia

The life and death of Sylvia brewing in my mind
Images of red rage and grey melancholy
On this blue bed I splay writing
Of despair; the need for air
When her Black Marauder left her
Told her they can no longer share
The powerful, passionate, destructive
Claim on each other's lives

By this he claimed her life

A box without windows, smelling faintly
Of cupcakes and tarts she baked all the time
To preoccupy her idle mind,
Of pungent, metal, extinguished flames
The symbol of the perfect housewife

A box without windows
The perfect end to this domesticity
Madness fueled by asphyxiating love
Dreamily slipping away from
Unbearable reality
The Motions

When did I wake
Into this dream?
Of utmost
Desolation
The night wind calls
But I have no more use for it
The future is unclear
Only sure
That I cannot spend the rest of my life
Living in this catastrophy

Words have left me
I want them back

And then the moment is lost.